It’s not a great picture. You don’t get many standing in a kwik trip parking lot. Driving home the other night I watched a moment of wonder for about 45 minutes. A storm had gone through. I sat in the safety of the sunroom and watched the rain come sideways. Over an inch in a short amount of time caused puddles everywhere. As I drove home I drove by trees downed, ditches full of water and involuntary rivers connecting puddles to ditches to peoples front yards.
The moments of wonder as I drove included a rainbow. When I first saw it I asked God, what promise did he have for me? Seems these past four years most things that were important to me have been taken away. People, places and things. Promises are given not removed. The rainbow changed. It made me wonder why life changes- a never ending question in search for meaning in life. For miles I drove watching the rainbow seemingly turn from one part of the sky to the other always keeping right in front of my eyes: and I was keeping my eyes on the road most of the time. I pulled off once to take a picture but pictures don’t satisfy the eyes of the heart some days.
Then I pulled into kwik trip and from one horizon to the other the rainbow stretched seemingly to reach as far as God is. I got out of the car and just stood and watched it . I backed up across the parking lot in an attempt to capture it all and there was not enough backing up to capture the width. I had to be content with a mediocre photo that filled my desperate longing for completion. That seems to be life. We back up hoping to just get some satisfaction. Just some Lord, I will take just some! I don’t need the whole rainbow but I want it. I don’t need the answers but I long for them.
For a moment and many moments later as I drove home that rainbow stretching the entire sky left me speechless and longing for God. Maybe it was to be truthful, longing for the promises God has for me that My heart hasn’t discovered.
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